I'm Still Working on My Masterpiece

I'm Still Working on My Masterpiece
I was at Zumba last week dancing my heart out when this song came on. It totally spoke to me. God, I love my life. I love it so much and I never take it for granted but I am really struggling to get this eating thing under control. It consumes my thoughts most days. Real thoughts that go through my head:

How big can I actually get? Why do I have to love food so much? Can I find a way to still be social and not eat so much? If I don't feel fat in my head, I'm not fat, right? Why does everything social involve food and alcohol? How come I could eat like this a few years ago and not gain weight? How can I have wanted something so badly for so long and have made zero (in fact backwards) progress towards that goal? Why can I never stick with my eating and exercise plans? Why is it so hard for me to NOT eat? If I graduate from a chubby girl to a fat girl will people treat me differently? Will I lose friends? Will Josh no longer be attracted to me? Am I going to be stressing about my weight for the rest of my life?

acaf2a4fe8d19309f7fb5f7344ee63e3 (Pinterest) This song was a great reminder that no one's perfect. We're all a work in progress. As long as we keep trying and working and fighting the best is truly yet to come. As Jessie J would say, "You haven't seen the best of me." I'm nowhere near where I want to be. In fact, to be totally honest, I feel pretty lost at the moment. But I'm stubborn, headstrong, and I work hard. I know I'll get there. I'm still working on my masterpiece. [Tweet "I'm still working on my masterpiece"] Questions of the Day: What's something in your life you're working on?

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